Me and what army?

Whenever I move I never take anyone I meet on my journey..with me, I always find myself feeling as if I've done so much work & am here defeated by my own army, standing here at the foot of my own corpse, I don't have anyone I fought for or loved anymore and these are the people I gave my whole entire soul to, the people that wore me thin to the bone, the ones that stressed me to tears, all completely out of love though and look I've got nothing but more tears to show for it, tears of pain, the up most pain. That's no way to be treated, to be continuously treated, to live...Ray says some people are really really really slow learners and that he knows factly they're missing out but maybe they're not slow learners maybe they know what's best for them and that best doesn't consist of me. That's fine too I guess. I hope they are slow learners though because throwing the good away they find their whole lives would never be for the better. Everyone needs that ray of sunshine, that last bit of hope.